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[03 Nov 2006|01:25am] |
Here's the aching truth for you.
I am not in the very least affected by the petty gossip you guys are spreading about me. Too bad.
"What you do to the least of my brethren you do to ME."
Aww..
We're in the community. Sisters and brothers in Christ. Or are we?
Tsktsk..
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[04 Jul 2006|07:05pm] |
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I will be still, know You are god |
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Even if there is still this now minute empty feeling inside of me, I am comforted by the loving people around me. And even if this morning, while I was on my way to school, I cried just lil bit as I was listening to "I finally found someone" by Barbara Streisand and Bryan Adams, I knew that I am in a much better form now. Not that i was badly shaken by the recent drama of my soap opera life. Oh, well, sort of. I feel good and I feel even better when people compliment me on that. I am happy inside and I perhaps I exude it.
"Sis, ano ba sikreto mo, bakit gumaganda ka lalo?" sabi ng isang brother.
The moves.. laos na yan!! Haha, but I do have a secret.
He makes me happy (c'mon, he is just no other guy). Preaching perhaps. But He does fill everything now. :)
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| lazy sunday |
[02 Jul 2006|01:47pm] |
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Sunday morning rain is pouring..hehe |
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oh.. should i say, lazy me? I have so many things to do: clean my room and the house, thesis stuff, literature stuff, singles stuff, plus find a part time job stuff. Which one should I do first this boring sunday? well, its past 1 in theaftrnoon right? Must go to a meeting. Guess I'd have to worry bout the rest when i get back. And may it be early. Now I should get my lazy behind moving. Toodles!
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| no more excess baggage |
[04 Jun 2006|11:45pm] |
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I am surprise with myself the past few days.
It's prayer. A heck lot of it. And as a sister would tell me, "it is growing in the Spirit."
Am growing in God's graceful presence. Thank You so much for holding me tight.
And without him asking for it, i forgive him. Still I am hopeful that I will be comforted with those much needed words. But I do. I forgive you.
I have yet to completely mend my heart though. And forgiving you is a start. There will be no assurance of a perfect day without the thoughts of us. Like the way I miss you so badly today. But i'm good. Happier, without you. I know, in my heart and in my mind, that you are not really for me.
And I will forever thank my Creator for the lesson learned way earlier.
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[29 May 2006|02:43am] |
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hurting like hell |
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so i put on my make up, put a smile on my face. |
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The best things in life are unseen. And so we close our eyes.
And when I close my eyes I see you. Us. And I recall the memories.
Texting.
The first coffee at Starbucks.
The first time we held hands.
The proposal in your car.
New Year.
The answer to the proposal in a midnight phone conversation.
Meeting your parents.
And the first I love you.
And then I close my eyes again and I am never the same.
Mommy troubles.
The first major fight because of her.
The rumors of your infidelity.
The coldness.
The "ignore me" syndrome when we are with the Singles people
The infrequent "I love you's"
The questionable whereabouts.
More rumors about your infidelity.
The sarcastic replies.
The apology you never said.
The last image: you walking out the door, teary-eyed, for a reason I still cannot understand until today.
And I never want to close my eyes again, at least not now. Not even for a slumber.For when I do I see not only what is beautiful, but that which that causes these unceasing tears that flow only at night when nobody can see me.
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